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I havent written in a wee while so im sorry.Maddy left three days ago,and i feel
a bit scared inside about something i just dont understand.
One good thing happened.In the middle of the night last night,I had the most wonderful sensation inside me.Like something warm in my chest,and warm between my legs.
My whle body went inside out,it seemed,and i felt like i could just float away.
I think i had one of those orgaasms in my sleep.Its so awful,and so embaressing to write,but kind of nice at the same time.
Right after it,Ihad this fantasy that a boy came into my room and put his hand across my
nightshirt and touched me softly.He whispered nice,gentle things,and then said i had t lie very still or he would leave.Then he pulled me to the end of the bed by my feet,and when my knees were bent over the end of my mattress,he made me close my eyes and i felt him open me up,bigger and bigger,so i looked to see what was happening but he was gone?.But i looked at my belly i was pregnant .He was inside me,but small like a baby.I wish it hadnt ended like that.I liked it better whenhe was pulling me down gentl and taking control.

byeeee
k.