hey only me again
last night i slept the whole night for the first time in
ages.When i woke up i couldnt even remember the dreams
that i had had, or if even i had any.I know they say everyone dreams all the
time,but ii usually remember them.Anyway,i was brushing my hair and all of a
sudden i got this image in my head it was like i been there before it was so strange
it was woods with sheep there and like a hut type thing i go in coz i here people talking but when
i open the door there is nobody there it seems so familiar to me i just cant put my
finger on where or even what it is?.

I saw a lady today she was sitting all by herself so i spoke to her
she looked at me for a while without speaking a word then she said
"i know you ar feeling curious about me and this place ,
i said yeh
in my dream i was told to meet you here i told her.
my tummy flipped at that point
"i dream like other people sometimes" she said calmly "it just happens".
she told me her name was margaret
i never realised that she was so nice.We sat together on the grass
for a while just chatting she said i should not worry so often things
have a habbit of working themselves out,she said she new alot about me,
special things she told me to pay attention to the things round about me.
she also said "things are not always what they seem"
she looked away then back again relieved that we were still alone
she said she new that i had been dreaming of being a woman,and that this
was good because all young girls do. then her words got confuzing...........
she said many things about the woods,and i tried to listen very carefully,
because i trusted her and thought maybe she knew something
that would help me, alot of it seemed like rubbish i remember it so ill write it
down but i dont know what it means, maybe i will later.What i did understand
made me feel so great inside,like i wasnt being bad at all what a relief it felt like....
and i wasnt being selfish at all.she said she will be watching me.
Then i told her something i hope she never repeats.i didnt even expect to say it
and to tell you the truth i didnt know where it came from. i told her that sometimes things happen that no one knos about.
That they happen in the woods when its very dark.I told her that sometimes i wasnt
even sure that these things were real,and sometimes i think they are more real than
the sunrise in the morning,and the thouht of that scares me very much.She looked away from
me,i remember, when i had finished .i thought i had said something to upset her
she looked at me then said you are a very beautiful girl and that many people
would love me in my life.
I hope many people do love me in my life. some day i hope to love someone too.
i wonder if margaret has ever though of sex the way i do.

love
k.