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something just came to me.........

a memory of skipping
i was small,looking up at him
before he told me to lie down
or to say things
before he told me
that opening my mouth was bad
that we had a secret
before he began to turn me inside out
before i sat on a tiny hill
we used to skip
hold hands#talk about what we saw
he told me what to see
#but i didnt see it
i have been blind
i think
ever since the skipping stopped.

I want to be left lone like other people are
I want to learn like other people do.
I want to forget the things that suddenly come to me....
something bad is happening..........why is it happening to me?
I think it is eal.I THINK IT IS REAL.
After i see jade maybe ill have more sense of it i
hope jade is still my friend

k.