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Its over a week since i last wrote in you sorry but its been crazy around here................ well, here inside me at least.Home is just the same.Irritating more than anything else .God, i feel so trapped sometimes,like i have to wear this fake smile on my face for everyone or else everyone freaks out on me.

I wonder if pain,the kind that dosnt just happen when someone dies,but the kind that you live with........ can it ever be a friend? Pain as a shadow or companion. i wonder if thats possible.

Anyway i just thought i would write in you to tell you the news i told you before about davie right?
well i meet him behind the garages and had a few joints with him last night by myself nobody else was there and took it further with him i did it with him it was great it felt great brilliant and it was all me who was in control again he did what i said and hen i said it i loved it .

Davie said that we were both smashed and shouldnt tell any body incase they get it wrong
but he said he definatly wants more of me but i think im going to try it with somebody else mind you davie will be good to keep sweet for his hash.

k.