heartbeat

whilst getting my christmas tree and decorations out this year
with my kids i had a sky music channel on , it was playing christmas
number ones from the ninetys and there it was heartbeat from steps
i remember listening to that when my mum was alive i sat on my sofa
looking at a piece of gold tinsel and thinking to myself my god how time has flew
i remember helping mum put up the decorations and here i am putting up
my decorations with my own kids it brought a smile to my face my son aston
asked me what i was smiling for? and i replied to him i was just thinking about
your granny and how when i was his age i used to put up the decorations with her
and he stated to laugh and said mummy i cant imagine you being my age
cheeky little bugger i gave him a hug and said this is a good song isnt it?
he said to me its a bit sad mummy i said why and he said to me look at the lady in
th video she is crying cause she is alone and cant find her true love and that came
from a 10 year old the next song on was wizzard and started to jump around merrily again
and i sat there watching him for a few minutes then i continued to decorate the tree
with his help whilst eating the candy canes and chocolate coins he said i love you mum
my heart melted and i thought thats the biggest gift ill ever get for christmas.

hurt

Seems like yesterday that i saw your face,you told me how proud you were
but i walked away,if only i knew what i knew today,i would hold you in my
arms,i would take the pain away,thank you for all you have done forgive
al your mistakes,theres nothing i wouldnt do to hear your voice again,
sometimes i wanna call you but i know you wont be there,

im sorry for blaming you,
for everything i just couldnt do,
and ive hurt myself
by hurting you.

Some days i feel broke inside but i wont admit it,
sometimes i just wanna hide coz its you i miss,
it was so hard to say goodbye,
when it comes to these things.

Would you tell me i was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who i am?

theres nothing i wouldnt do to have just one more chance
to look into your eyes and see you looking back

Im sorry for blaming you
for everything i just couldnt do
and ive hurt myself
by hurting you.

If i had just one more day,
i would tell you how much i missed you
since you have been away,
ive learned to try to let you go,
i guess theres nothing more to say.

Im sorry for blaming you
for everything i just couldnt do
and ive hurt myself
by hurting you.